The Abnormal State of My Emotional Suffering

Abstract

• The abstract painting series “The Abnormal State of My Sorrowful Emotions” conveys the artist’s inner experiences through the lens of contemporary art, centering on sorrowful emotional states as the core theme for abstract interpretation and expression. In this context, suffering is not limited to external stimuli but is perceived as a complex interplay of internal emotional reactions, mental perceptions, and physical sensations. The creative process thus serves as an introspective journey into the depths of emotional turbulence. This series explores abnormal emotional states such as confusion, suffocation, uncertainty, and faint glimmers of hope hidden within. These emotions are translated directly through the language of visual art—via surface texture, color, form, and the dynamic movement of paint across the canvas. The objective of this creative work is to utilize abstract painting as a tool for emotional expression during moments of psychological distress, functioning simultaneously as a process of self-healing and emotional therapy through the act of making. In terms of technique, the artist employs pouring and dripping methods, mixing paint with thinner to achieve a sense of organic fluidity on the canvas. Chalk powder is combined with glue to create surfaces that are rough, cracked, or uneven—textures that reflect emotional instability and reinforce the psychological themes of the work. These materials and processes not only create compelling visual effects but also effectively communicate the emotions hidden beneath the surface. The creative process becomes both an act of self-exploration and an honest revelation of one’s inner state. The outcome of this artistic exploration fulfilled the intended goals: to employ a distinctive painting technique, to authentically express emotion, and to establish a meaningful connection between the artist and the audience through visual reflections of internal states. The techniques and creative process used in this body of work have proven to be not only visually effective but also deeply therapeutic for the artist. The series has been presented in the form of a creative article, contributing to the broader dissemination of knowledge related to artistic processes and expanding the contemporary art discourse. It is hoped that this work will benefit those interested in art as a tool for therapy and as a medium rooted in personal experience and emotional truth
• Keywords: \ Abstract Painting \ Emotional Abnormality \ Sorrowful Emotions